The end of the dream

[skyring]

Yesterday Kerri and I had some frank discussions about my priorities in life and the result is that I've cancelled my October trip, which I must admit was kind of escalating beyond any sort of budget.

I like travel and my internet community, Kerri has her head screwed on a bit tighter and takes an interest in finance, and we've managed to get along fine so far.

But my number one priority is Kerri, and I have to admit I've kind of taken my eye off the ball recently. Doing extra shifts to pay for a month-long holiday merely means I'm spending even less time with her.

It hasn't quite come to a choice between marriage and world travel, but in the end there's only one realistic direction for me, and two round the world trips in a year, not to mention the New Zealand experience, is probably a little too much.

A pity, as I had planned a fantastic holiday based around a road trip through the South, ending up with a day in San Francisco after the convention, but I guess I have to be realistic.

I'm sorry for those people I've let down through this decision, but I'm even sorrier for myself. All told, I've made a right cock-up of this.

But in a way it's a relief. I was beginning to feel like I was being torn apart by conflicting demands on my limited time.

We've compromised. Next April Kerri and I will travel together to the Amsterdam convention.

Comments

[aka-phoenix.livejournal.com]

I'll just stick to the positive bits: I love that you and Kerri talked it over instead of letting it simmer. I'm also very glad to hear you did what seems to be the right thing for your marriage, your wife and therefore, for yourself. And last but not least, not only can I look forward to meeting you in Amsterdam, but Kerri as well :)