The end of the dream
Sep. 6th, 2009 08:47 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
skyringYesterday Kerri and I had some frank discussions about my priorities in life and the result is that I've cancelled my October trip, which I must admit was kind of escalating beyond any sort of budget.
I like travel and my internet community, Kerri has her head screwed on a bit tighter and takes an interest in finance, and we've managed to get along fine so far.
But my number one priority is Kerri, and I have to admit I've kind of taken my eye off the ball recently. Doing extra shifts to pay for a month-long holiday merely means I'm spending even less time with her.
It hasn't quite come to a choice between marriage and world travel, but in the end there's only one realistic direction for me, and two round the world trips in a year, not to mention the New Zealand experience, is probably a little too much.
A pity, as I had planned a fantastic holiday based around a road trip through the South, ending up with a day in San Francisco after the convention, but I guess I have to be realistic.
I'm sorry for those people I've let down through this decision, but I'm even sorrier for myself. All told, I've made a right cock-up of this.
But in a way it's a relief. I was beginning to feel like I was being torn apart by conflicting demands on my limited time.
We've compromised. Next April Kerri and I will travel together to the Amsterdam convention.
I like travel and my internet community, Kerri has her head screwed on a bit tighter and takes an interest in finance, and we've managed to get along fine so far.
But my number one priority is Kerri, and I have to admit I've kind of taken my eye off the ball recently. Doing extra shifts to pay for a month-long holiday merely means I'm spending even less time with her.
It hasn't quite come to a choice between marriage and world travel, but in the end there's only one realistic direction for me, and two round the world trips in a year, not to mention the New Zealand experience, is probably a little too much.
A pity, as I had planned a fantastic holiday based around a road trip through the South, ending up with a day in San Francisco after the convention, but I guess I have to be realistic.
I'm sorry for those people I've let down through this decision, but I'm even sorrier for myself. All told, I've made a right cock-up of this.
But in a way it's a relief. I was beginning to feel like I was being torn apart by conflicting demands on my limited time.
We've compromised. Next April Kerri and I will travel together to the Amsterdam convention.
