The end of the dream
Sep. 6th, 2009 08:47 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
skyringYesterday Kerri and I had some frank discussions about my priorities in life and the result is that I've cancelled my October trip, which I must admit was kind of escalating beyond any sort of budget.
I like travel and my internet community, Kerri has her head screwed on a bit tighter and takes an interest in finance, and we've managed to get along fine so far.
But my number one priority is Kerri, and I have to admit I've kind of taken my eye off the ball recently. Doing extra shifts to pay for a month-long holiday merely means I'm spending even less time with her.
It hasn't quite come to a choice between marriage and world travel, but in the end there's only one realistic direction for me, and two round the world trips in a year, not to mention the New Zealand experience, is probably a little too much.
A pity, as I had planned a fantastic holiday based around a road trip through the South, ending up with a day in San Francisco after the convention, but I guess I have to be realistic.
I'm sorry for those people I've let down through this decision, but I'm even sorrier for myself. All told, I've made a right cock-up of this.
But in a way it's a relief. I was beginning to feel like I was being torn apart by conflicting demands on my limited time.
We've compromised. Next April Kerri and I will travel together to the Amsterdam convention.
I like travel and my internet community, Kerri has her head screwed on a bit tighter and takes an interest in finance, and we've managed to get along fine so far.
But my number one priority is Kerri, and I have to admit I've kind of taken my eye off the ball recently. Doing extra shifts to pay for a month-long holiday merely means I'm spending even less time with her.
It hasn't quite come to a choice between marriage and world travel, but in the end there's only one realistic direction for me, and two round the world trips in a year, not to mention the New Zealand experience, is probably a little too much.
A pity, as I had planned a fantastic holiday based around a road trip through the South, ending up with a day in San Francisco after the convention, but I guess I have to be realistic.
I'm sorry for those people I've let down through this decision, but I'm even sorrier for myself. All told, I've made a right cock-up of this.
But in a way it's a relief. I was beginning to feel like I was being torn apart by conflicting demands on my limited time.
We've compromised. Next April Kerri and I will travel together to the Amsterdam convention.
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Date: 2009-09-05 11:12 pm (UTC)Seriously, I am sure you are feeling deflated with having to cancel and I am equally sure that the Kansas City BookCrossers will be saddened by your absence but your bond and partnership with Kerri is more important than anything else.
If I may be allowed, I send cheering-up hugs and supportive and comforting thoughts. You are indubitably one of the nicest men on the planet!
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Date: 2009-09-05 11:21 pm (UTC)Yes, that's it in a nutshell - Kerri is more important to me than anything else.
I should jump straight on a plane and come across to give you a big hug!
But, on second thoughts, you'll have to make do with one of those unsatisfying cyber *hugs* until I can see you again.
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Date: 2009-09-06 12:05 am (UTC)I am the last person, the very, very last person to give sage financial management advice but recent experience with the cost of airline tickets has lent me some small insight into your problem.
Have a lovely Fathers' Day, dear friend